argh, days seem to be whizzing by me faster and faster. Like I cant seem to slow them or think at all. It feels like im just counting down the days I have left here. It's fucked up but true. I can't seem to reach the fact I just won't be here someday. Maybe were all eternal beings. I can only wish and hope. Life is one big mystery that i'm completely stuck on. Maybe it's just now, how things are right now that's making me crazy. Iv been really truly happy before and it's never really been while iv been around this place. I need a place, a job, someone, someone to love, something. Spilling whats on my mind always somehow helps. night!