Its really odd to see an overcast morning with everything green. it feels like a dream i had a couple weeks ago that iv been thinking about alot. just really weird weather and had that certain feel. It's really weird to feel things you had only felt in dreams before. if that makes sense? probably not.

<3

I have
a
smile
on
my
face.
Don't ask.

fuck. music is hard. well it's super fucking easy when your in the right mindset I guess. very patient and intricate is the ideal mind-set. I feel shooting people in the face right now. I guess I didnt really pick the best time to try this. but its frustrating as hell when you really WANT to create something awesome and beautiful but your own mind wont let you. I wish I was a machine and could just do everything flawlessly everytime but without the human aspect it wouldnt be awesome. wow I think too much.

I feel really weird. I dont really know why. Its like im indecisive about how I feel. Guess Im going to sleep. I feel lonely :(. I rarely feel lonely and I hate it when I do.

wow I just discovered my mound of ticket stubs and stuff. they date back to 04. jesus I was 13 lol. Il lay them all out sometime and take a picture. kinda NEATO to find all this old stuff.

Wow, I had a pretty nostalgic night. going through some old photos from when I was probably 7 or 8. weird how I have contact with pretty much all of my old friends from back then. I guess thats what you get for living in a small town. well its off to bed for me. <3

IM SO CRAZEH. or just happy. I don't really know.

holy crap. I have a weird tingling sensation around my lower chest, around the top of my stomach. it almost feels like when your really scared or something. Like a sense of panic. Its kinda freaking me out :(. I dont feel scared. well except for the weird feeling scared thing in my stomach, im scared about that. Maybe Iv finally lost it. Guess Il go try and watch something that'll take my mind off of it and try to pass out.

weird how I get anxious and nervous at night. I really hate it. even if im up all night I still dont feel right until the morning. ALSO. its weird how I know brits by how they look. Iv done it tons of times. see someone and just know they're brits before they even talk. they always have a certain expression or something. I can never really pinpoint it.

Wow. everything seems to have different meaning from day to day. Its really fucking confusing.